I’ve been very busy with school and work. Life is a bit overwhelming at the moment, lots of projects due, teaching myself crap.. and failing.. It’s stressing me out. Last week I just about cried every day of the week, it was horrible. I contemplated some terrible ideas in my head.. which I will not discuss. I had a major breakdown – and visited my moms grave for some guidance. It was pretty intense. I feel awful just thinking about it again. I got over what I was dealing with – it was me failing on php – and I’m thankfully back to normal now.

My birthday is coming up quick. I’m going downtown clubbing this time. I haven’t done the Toronto clubbing scene thing in a while.  I felt like it was greatly needed. LOL I’ve decided on a 25 and over bar. Though half of my party is under 25, I’m sure the club wont decline a bunch of pretty girls .. ya know? .. well I hope! OR there’s always somewhere else. I decided on the 25+ place because I am so sick of touchy guys at the club thinking they can just come up behind you and rub their junk on your ass/back. I’m over that part of my life. The bars/clubs around my area are usually filled with 19 year olds that always manage to disappoint me.. I’m too old to go out in my area. LOL

Things have been okay I guess. Been working lots mostly and not going out as much. Since school has started up, everyone has dropped off the face of the earth. All the summer hotspots aren’t hot anymore, people have vanished. Everyone isn’t up for going out anymore. Now that the cold weather has hit, it’s worse. It makes me sad.

One thing that I am looking forward to is my birthday next weekend!!! I’m going downtown and staying in a hotel etc. Should be fun times. Last year we did the same kind of thing, but with more. Didn’t turn out quite how I would’ve wanted it to. This year is more low key, more intimate ;) lmao… Haven’t decided where to go yet. Maybe Circa (my fave) or Republik.. who knows. Or somewhere where we can get cheap bottle service. That always makes the night good :/

Oh, one interesting thing that has happened to me…. A few weeks ago I was stopped by the police. I wasn’t in my town or anywhere I knew.. and was lost trying to find my friends house, took a wrong turn, made a U turn… and was stopped. This was up in Scugog (Durham Region still). I told the guy I was trying to find my friends house and was lost. The guy told me there was suspicious actions going around and a neighbour called the police saying there was someone wondering around their property. I told them I had no idea what they were talking about and didn’t know anything. AND since I forgot the address, the guy didn’t believe anything I told him, he then went to the other side of the car, the window was open, and he told me to find the insurance, papers etc.. and he told me to open the door (passenger side). I then said to him (knowing my rights), “aren’t you not allowed to do that”  “you’re not allowed to do that without a warrant/court order” (something along those lines).. he then got really pissed at me, demanded me to get out of the car and told me I was under arrest. He basically shoved me out of the car, started feeling me up, innappropriately, asking if I was carrying any weapons.. it was obvious I was not.. then he put me in the back of the SUV cruiser. FOR 2 HOURS…. It was such a traumatizing experience. More back up came, they all harassed me saying I was trafficking drugs, and how much of a criminal I am, etc.. FYI: I have NOTHING on my record, I am clean, I have never done anything in my life to EVER be in trouble with the law. I’ve never even gotten a speeding ticket or anything etc.. This was such bullshit. They got a hold of my friend that I was looking for, he was just down the road at a house.. I missed it.. Even when he showed up, they still kept me for longer…. Ugh

I’ve heard SO many stories about the Durham Regional police, and never really believed that they were bad or anything, but this has really opened up my eyes. This could happen to anyone. Especially the innocent, maybe even more. They should fucking grow some brains and catch REAL criminals. It’s no excuse to do this to an innocent bystander who was in the wrong place at the wrong time. Such stupidity. I am not impressed. Why am I wasting my tax dollars on this?

/END rant..

PS: From that night I was under “arrest”…..I managed to get out of the handcuffs from behind me. I had the biggest itch and just HAD to scratch it.. I have no idea how I got my hands out of it.. but that was the only funny part of the night lol