Happy birthday to me!

Today I turned 27 years old! WOW. Time really flys by… I don’t even feel my age .. OR should I say… ACT my age

At this age, my parents were married for 1 year, in their own house… my mom was expecting her first child – I can’t even imagine being in that position in my life right now.

I guess in my generation things go a lot slower. Though most of my friends are living on my own. There is only a select few that are actually married and living in their own houses. None with children yet.

Sometimes I do get a little worried that my life wont be how I originally wanted it to be, but I try not to think about it in details. I like to believe that these opportunities will still arise in my life and I’ll get back onto the “family” goal aspirations I have for the future.

Enough about the seriousness. So far my birthday has been pretty good, I can’t complain too much 

Over the weekend I celebrated with family and friends. My dad took the whole family out for sushi lunch. MMM! and afterwards we celebrated with cake of course (as seen from the above photo). Later on, I went out with all my girls and we went out dancing. It was so much fun. We danced the night away at The Devil’s Martini – Had a good time, drinks were fairly cheap.. and thanks to all my friends, I didn’t have to spend a thing <3

Though after I woke up (after the storm) – I felt really sick…. not a “hangover” kind of sick.. Actually SICK and still am. I’ve been fighting off a flu-like illness.. I missed Monday & Tuesday’s classes.. I finally made it back today — still really sick. I might have to cancel my birthday dinner with the girls again tonight OH WELL — Can’t complain much. I don’t get sick often. I guess it’s just my time. heh

I’ve been very busy with school and work. Life is a bit overwhelming at the moment, lots of projects due, teaching myself crap.. and failing.. It’s stressing me out. Last week I just about cried every day of the week, it was horrible. I contemplated some terrible ideas in my head.. which I will not discuss. I had a major breakdown – and visited my moms grave for some guidance. It was pretty intense. I feel awful just thinking about it again. I got over what I was dealing with – it was me failing on php – and I’m thankfully back to normal now.

My birthday is coming up quick. I’m going downtown clubbing this time. I haven’t done the Toronto clubbing scene thing in a while.  I felt like it was greatly needed. LOL I’ve decided on a 25 and over bar. Though half of my party is under 25, I’m sure the club wont decline a bunch of pretty girls .. ya know? .. well I hope! OR there’s always somewhere else. I decided on the 25+ place because I am so sick of touchy guys at the club thinking they can just come up behind you and rub their junk on your ass/back. I’m over that part of my life. The bars/clubs around my area are usually filled with 19 year olds that always manage to disappoint me.. I’m too old to go out in my area. LOL

Anyway, I went to Kingston on the 6th for Andrea‘s Bday. I had a really great time. Lots of partying!! My fave. HAHA. It’s always good to get away from the normal. I love to travel so much. I’m planning on going back next week. So more fun to come! I can’t wait. This time, no crazy partying drinking… I think at least ;) Planning on seeing Knowing. I love Nicolas Cage! His movies never disappoint me.

Last week I got a new laptop! :D I got this one from Best Buy it was on sale then. I picked it up last Thursday night. I’m pretty happy with it. It runs perfectly, so smooth and quick. I never thought I’d love a PC again. HAHAHAHA… I do miss my Mac OS though. oh well, soon September will come and I can use it again. har har. Laptops are so convenient,  love it. I’m not use to the webcam though. Sometimes I get freaked out that someone can see me. I’ve always had my webcam disconnected on my desktop, that’s just me being paranoid. A few weeks ago they had a episode on CSI (with Diddy btw) and they could access a stolen laptops webcam remotely.. that was freaky HAHA I know that’s all Hollywood though ;)

IN MAY I am planning a trip to see Laurie in Montreal!!!!!! At the end of the month for her birthday. I haven’t seen her in a while. Like 2 years maybe? I forget. So I’m pretty stoked about that. Should be fun!!!

Umm, and I dunno what else…. ttyl

BUT other news, I got into my 1st choice!  So I didn’t really have to take that test, but I wanted to keep my options open and have different choices. My tuition for the 1st year is $5,000.. So I gotta start saving. I am kinda depending on getting a OSAP loan. I don’t think I will be able to save up that much for July/Aug? :/ *Keeps fingers crossed*

This weekend I’m going up to Kingston for Andrea’s Birthday!! I’m really looking forward to it! Anywhere is better than where I am.. HAHA I am hoping that we don’t have a snowstorm on the night I have to drive up. Last year that’s what happened, and I was so sad. I’m praying that something like that doesn’t happen.

So we had reserved a booth and bottle service at the club for my friend Melissa’s birthday. When we got to the club, the bouncer/guy with the list said we weren’t on it. My first reaction was .. what the fuck ? We made the arrangements weeks in advance!! The guy continued to tell us we did not. This was while we were waiting out in the arctic temperature outside. It went on for about 10 minutes. Lucky thing the girl who arranged everything (my friends sister) remembered the guys name she had been talking to on the phone. Well the guy remembered, and he had booked us for the weekend after. I really don’t see how you can confuse the dates. It’s January 30th.. next week is a whole different month! You can’t confuse January and February. :/ He talked to someone and he finally let us in. Another peeve of mine was the carpet at the door was wet with slush and was on a slant. All of us were clearly slipping, and the 3 guys standing at the door didn’t even bother to help us. Luckily none of us slipped.

Good thing was we all got in for free. Bottles were $100 + tax and 19% Gratuity. So the bill came to $280? Not bad for downtown. The host was fun and energetic. AND pretty hot. But she kept making us drink like 3/4 full drinks of alcohol. LOL We suspected that she didn’t want us to stay at the booth for long. BUT we did! HAHA for them.

Music was great as always. 4 Korners were DJing and they’re always good. By the end of the night we all had fun. We were all pretty sloshed, and all was well at the end.

Kitten!!

I got a kitten! He’s so full of love and is so cute! I’m currently up in the air for names. He was named Tigger, but I think that’s just a cop-out name LOL and I don’t really like Whinny The Pooh. :/ I really like when animals are named real human names.. So I was thinking Harrold. HAHA Harry for short. What do ya think?

He’s my first real pet. LOL I’ve never had cats & dogs before. It’s quite the experience. He never lets me sleep when I want to. I have to get use to his claws, they hurt like hell when he plays. :/ I would never de-claw.. it just seems so inhumane. How hard is it to trim claws? Does everyone do that?

Other than getting a kitten, I’ve been up to not much of anything. Still reading my books. Almost finished the entire Shopaholic series. I have a few more chapters left that I will finish today sometime. I’ve bought the rest of Sophie Kinsella’s books that I didn’t have, The Undomestic Goddess and Can You Keep A Secret? I’ve heard they are really good. I bought a few more 80% books from Chapters yesterday after work. So that should hold me over for at least a month. LOL

Today I’m going downtown shopping and then clubbing at Reign Nightclub for Melissa’s Birthday. We are getting a booth and bottles, so that should be pretty fun. The DJ(s) who are there tonight are the same ones from Circa Saturdays. So I know I’ll be having a great time. I hope my fave guy is there and I don’t make an ass out of myself like last time. rofl… Saturday is a bachelorette party at Circa Nightclub. I’m happy they chose to go there. It’s always so much fun there. I haven’t been since New Years Eve!

I’m giving Reign another shot tonight. I went last Saturday, and they made us line up for 30 minutes even though I put us on Guestlist, in the -20 degree weather. AND they only gave us 1 free pass. There were 3 of us there. Also they advertised that it would be 90′s music all night, which is why I went, BUT they didn’t not play all 90′s. Most of it was current. I was pretty pissed about that. OH and cover was $20… and the place was tiny. 2 floors and pretty rammed. I would’ve went to Circa if I knew my guests had to pay that… drink prices were okay, $6 .. which is good for downtown Toronto….

Well  I gotta shower and pack up my things for tonight. Have a good weekend!!!

On Sunday, my dad took me out for lunch at Fire and Ice. It was really yummy! You got to choose your own Vegetables, noodles and sauce. Then the chef stir-fries it for you with your choice of protein (meat). It was delicious!! I loved it. Afterwards we ate our traditional cake. It’s like a family tradition to have a birthday cake every year. But it really made me sad though that it was just my dad and I. I wish my mom was still here. When it came time to blow out my candles, it made me think of her. My wishes for the past 9 years have always been for my mom. Wish for her to get better, wish for her cancer not to come back, etc. This year I had to hold back my tears thinking about that moment. Especially thinking about last year, we had to celebrate it in the bedroom because at that point she could no longer walk down the stairs. The anniversary of her death is just a bit over a month away. I don’t know what is going to happen then..

Lately I’ve been really down, the past week, and present. A lot of shit has been going on that I’m having a hard time dealing with. Nothing that I wish to discuss in detail, but I don’t know what I’m going to do about it. I’m seriously considering therapy or something along the lines of that. I have been having really bad thoughts every night, while I’m working, and when I’m by myself. Every day it feels like it’s becoming harder and harder. I try to hid it from everyone but that isn’t going to help it. *sigh. I don’t know anymore …